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Hi journal,

yea, I'm happy. My Coven Mistress has seen fit to make me ACM..........thank you journal.

I hope I'm up to it and can do Steph and the Coven proud.

I just noticed that nearly everyone on my friends list are women..............its the same for msn and yahoo. In fact on all the sites I have membership, the vast majority are all women. I would estimate about 300 of them.

It's true I don't speak to more than half of them, but the ones I do chat to, I have developed a closer bond with. They may pop up once a week, month or whenever. Some will want a complete update while others are content with a quick 'hi'. There dispositions are varied, some married, single, looking, not looking - whatever.

Then there are the pick of the rest, they number less than twenty and at some point in our online relationship we have become good friends indeed.

Just recently I have met someone who has tenderly broken down my so called impenetrable wall of defence and has opened my eyes to happiness and love.

The 'friends' that have kept their distance and only pop online now and again all wish me 'deserved' good wishes with my new love. But the women who I speak to regularly, all bar a few, seem to be put out by my new found happiness.

As if that wasn't bad enough, my honesty enables me to tell my new love about these women, but instead of it being accepted as my normal behaviour, I find that she questions herself and feels its her fault that they are being upset.

I will selfishly say this, I love her very much and no one is gonna stop me from feeling this good - no one.

This guy is officially taken........and loving it.

hi journal,

yes I know it will soon be Halloween...sure you'll hear about it.

Dominique wants to dress up as a vamp..............in fact her words were, and I quote, "I want to be one of Lestats girls".......I mean WTF, she's 9, dose her mother know what she's reading!!!! Could be something off the playground I guess.

Later Journal.

What have you got to say now Journal.

O M G...................her passport came. HUH.

Yes Journal, you will be ignored...just a lil'. But you are so gonna know about it later.

My day with my daughter is always a pleasure for me, she so naturally kisses my cheek and hugs me on sight.

To her I am a giant, full of love, an all seeing all knowing wise man. I sit on top of Olympus.



Then I go home, to a flat so lonely.

I take comfort in the plans we've made for next Sunday..........for what else is there.



I truly am blessed.

Holly was put to sleep at around 7pm (gmt) a loved and respected member of the family - she will be missed.



Truly lovable.









I would have dared anyone to even look at my daughter wrongly









a great companion and friend

I get from time to time people bringing there drama to my door, sure I try and help, but when the child inside them 'kicks in' and they refuse to see sense I will send them to read 'Harpia's Journal' and tell them to check out her personal entries.......... then, if they still feel the world is against them I will pull the rope from for them.

I have my fav journals, only a dozen or so -- in fact I've just discovered that half of them aren't really 'my cup of tea', they are on my list to make those people feel good about them self, not that I'm any thing to go by.

But the ones I do read, break my day and bring a smile to my face. They may just be ranting ,whining or have something genuine to say, but whatever, they make me happy.

I feel good, happy even. So why cant I just let it be?

I just feel when things are going this good -- I'm rising for a fall.



Think positive damn it

STABB666



will his tombstone head read.........



"We Couldn't Bury You Here

As There Is Another Grave

Doing The Exact Same Thing"

I've decided to move the 'countdown' to the stories section, I think it has potential for a very great story indeed.

82 days to go



mood: anxious

83 days to go.

mood : bemused

as of now its a countdown..............



84 days to go.

mood : dubious

What on earth am I doing, am I nuts?

Alarm bells ring and instead of running, I'm happily turning them off.

NUTS I TELL YOU!!!!

Hey Journal,



how ya doing, see I told you I wouldn't neglect you...that much.

I have so much to tell you, WOW, what a week..........



what do you mean 'hang on' and 'stop right there' ?

you know? ? ?

but how, I haven't wrote anything yet...............oh my clever Journal........you read between the lines.



Yes I'm happy, real happy.